Total pages in book: 94
Estimated words: 90795 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 454(@200wpm)___ 363(@250wpm)___ 303(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 90795 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 454(@200wpm)___ 363(@250wpm)___ 303(@300wpm)
Of course she would. I doubt she would be saying that if she knew the reason I need out of his class. But then, is it really that bad if James and I don’t hook up again? What happened happened, we can’t control that, but as long as we’re professional and don’t cross that line, what can go wrong? “There are no other options?” I ask, doing my due diligence. It would be better for both of us if I could just get out of the class.
Gabriella tries again but can’t find anything that doesn’t put me behind schedule. I can’t afford to do that. I need to get my degree as soon as possible and stick to the plan.
We can make this work. We’ll keep our distance and forget anything ever happened between us.
I have a feeling that’ll be easier said than done.
*
I end up at Hannah’s after school. Tash, her girlfriend, isn’t home from the shop yet. She works as a hair stylist downtown and sometimes takes clients into the evening.
Hannah gives me a beer as soon as I arrive, and we head to the back porch and put our feet up. “So…intriguing sub from earlier this year…? He’s one of my professors.”
She’s taking a drink when I say that, spitting beer onto the porch and sitting forward. “Shut the fuck up.”
“I’m not kidding. Believe me. I wish I was.”
“Holy shit, babe. That’s not good.”
“You’re telling me.” I take a swig of my beer. “I could tell he was freaking out when he saw me.”
“Well, yeah. He can get in trouble for that, right?”
“I’m not sure. I don’t know if they can do anything about the fact that we’ve slept together in the past. I’m assuming that can’t get him in trouble. We definitely can’t do anything again.” I’m sure it would be frowned upon if they did find out about the past, though. They can still consider it a conflict of interest, and my work in class and how James grades me will be in question.
“Can you switch out?”
“Tried. It’s a no-go.” I recap what my advisor said.
“Damn. You need to keep it in your pants.”
“I will.” I scratch my head before letting it drop back against the chair. “This is so incredibly fucked.”
“You want him.”
“He’s hot. And…” How do I put into words this sexual connection to someone who isn’t kinky? “It’s not easy to meet someone who matches me so well sexually—and mentally too because kink is more than sex for me.” It is for James as well, even if he doesn’t realize it or won’t admit it to himself. “So it’s like…a different kind of connection? I don’t know how to explain it.”
“But you play with other people. You have that woman you hook up with sometimes, what’s her name…? Crystal. Can’t you get what you need from her? Is that a stupid question?”
I shake my head. “No, it’s not, and yeah, Crystal and I are a good match, generally speaking.” I can’t figure out what it is about James that’s different, though. Why I get something more out of it. With Crystal, it feeds me sexually and mentally to a degree, but that mental aspect is kicked up a notch with him—like I know a part of him needs it more, but he doesn’t let himself have it nearly enough. “Anyway, did you miss me at the shop today?” I change the subject, and I’m surprised Hannah lets me.
We talk about work for a bit, then Tasha comes home. She’s a few inches shorter than Han, curvier, her body fuller than Hannah’s long, lean one. Her hair is in box braids today. Last time I saw her it was straight. She gives me a hug, and I kiss her forehead. “Hey, you.”
“You guys keeping out of trouble?” she asks. Tasha is great for Han, and I’m glad she found her. They’ve only been together about a year and a half, but she makes Han happier than I’ve ever seen her.
“Never. Why would we do that?” I wink at her.
I finish my beer, and then we order takeout and have dinner together. A couple of hours later, I’m home, showered and at my desk, going over class requirements and other shit I need for school. I’m not surprised James’s syllabus is longer and wordier than the others’. When I look at the top, I see his email there, which is his preferred method of communication.
Should I let him know I couldn’t get out of his class, or just show up on Wednesday? He’ll see my name is still on his roster, so it’s not like he’ll be surprised, but I feel an obligation to explain the situation. I’m not sure something like that is best done by email, though, and I don’t know if school emails are monitored in any way either.