Total pages in book: 137
Estimated words: 127949 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 640(@200wpm)___ 512(@250wpm)___ 426(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 127949 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 640(@200wpm)___ 512(@250wpm)___ 426(@300wpm)
He put on the little anklet with a ballet dancer charm and a thick double clasp so I wouldn’t lose it.
He treats me like a real princess. Even this morning, we took a long shower after our deck activities and Merrick washed my hair and my body. I feel so special with him, and the truth is, I feel more than just safe, I feel committed. Like we are already deep into this relationship somehow, in a matter of a couple days.
I’ve never felt secure with anyone, ever, not even my so-called parents. It’s confusing, and the new hope I feel twists with old doubt inside of me.
I’ve never known what it’s like to have roots, and from our conversations this morning, Merrick has solid roots, not only here in the community but with his family. I don’t even know how that would feel.
It makes me think of my sister. Wondering if she’s okay. Wanting to tell Merrick about her. Even ask if we can maybe take her away as well…I shake the thought away. The fear they will come for me is one thing, but if two of us were to defect, they would surely send out an army to bring us back.
I don’t know what to do, there’s not right solution so I do my best to think of the wonder of the day, and hope somehow, someday I can get my sister to freedom as well.
“You feeling okay, baby?” Merrick brushes my cheek with his thumb as I lean into him, his hard legs under my rear end, the yellow sundress so soft on my skin.
“Yes. I’m a little tired but wide awake at the same time. A little sore, too, but I feel better than I have in as long as I can remember.”
“Good. You should always tell me, good and bad, how you feel, okay? I can’t help you if I don’t know what’s going on inside that beautiful head, heart and body of yours.”
I nod, agreeing, but deep down I wonder if I will ever be able to adjust to such a normal sort of life. What if the wanderlust that’s been my existence is so ingrained I can’t stay in one place for long? Merrick has a career, a position in the community, a family, a home…what if I can’t do this?
My life has been a revolving door of families and working people for what we can get. I’ve never really belonged in a real family, but as I feel Merrick’s warmth next to me, I think I love him. I think I’m in love with him. And when, not if, he leaves, it will destroy me. Because I’ve never let myself feel anything like this before.
Fear clamps around my throat and I know I have to find a way to protect myself from the pain I know is coming.
“I have a surprise.” Merrick lifts me to my feet, then stands next to me, draping his arm around my shoulders.
“You’ve done enough for me already.”
“That will never be true, little one. But, we’re going to have lunch with my parents and a few friends. I want them to meet you.”
Panic stabs into my throat. Parents? Friends?
“I don’t know.” I shake my head, the hope too high a price to pay if this turns out not to be real.
“Come on.”
He leads me out of the store, everyone waving and saying their polite goodbye’s to the local sheriff, while shoot me sidelong glances as they whisper to each other.
We walk down Main Street, Merrick gripping my hand like he will never let go, and as we approach a corner, I see an older couple across the street, chatting with a woman and a young girl about my age, outside a diner with a sign above: The Over Easy.
“Merrick…” I stop, barely able to breathe. I’ve been a thief of sorts, a grifter, a user for so long…I can’t belong in this fairytale life. Especially not with the sheriff of the town. He’ll lose the respect of the community and maybe his job…
I feel like my insides are being rearranged. The thought of not being with Merrick is already bringing burning tears to my eyes but it’s so real all of a sudden. So normal.
The older couple looks our way and waves, and Merrick gives them a wave in return.
I feel so out of place it’s all I can do to not turn and run in the opposite direction, but Merrick just squeezes my hand and gives me a smile.
“They’re going to love you.” Merrick leans down and kisses me, long and slow, and for a moment I believe in everything, and I feel strong.
“I hope so.”
We cross the street, and I’m immediately clutched into embraces and given introductions as everyone smiles and laughs, pulling me into the warm, wonderful energy of people who obviously love and care about each other, with no agenda other than the bonds of family and friendship.