Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 82798 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 414(@200wpm)___ 331(@250wpm)___ 276(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 82798 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 414(@200wpm)___ 331(@250wpm)___ 276(@300wpm)
At first, I hadn’t realized it, but the hardness pressing against me was his penis. It was startling when I figured it out because, well, it was bigger than I’d imagined penises to be. From reading, I had been led to believe that when it was hard like that, it was sexually aroused. But I didn’t think that was necessarily true. Levi never acted sexually interested in me.
Me, on the other hand? I was very sexually interested in him. By the time he got out of bed in the morning, I was aching between my legs so bad that it was painful. I tried to look at it as life giving me this small taste since I could never have the entire thing. I wanted to find some sexier books. The romance novels I had weren’t very descriptive with sex. I was curious about things. More than once, I had considered asking Levi.
His hand moved, and his palm covered my boob. I dropped my gaze to watch him. He began to gently squeeze it, and I had to bite down on my bottom lip to keep from making a noise. Why did him touching me here make the area between my legs tingle? His hand slid down and then moved beneath my camisole until his bare hand was touching my breast.
Oh my God. I closed my eyes as he caressed it.
A low groan came from his chest, and he pushed his hard penis against my bottom.
“Ah.” I couldn’t stop the gasp of pleasure that shot through me.
He froze. We both lay there, not moving, but from the way he was breathing, I knew he was awake. Slowly, his hand slid down and out from under my top. I wanted to weep. I wasn’t ready for that to stop yet. Things had been building inside me that I wanted to experience.
“Oops,” he grunted, then chuckled. “Must have been having a good dream.” Then, he patted my waist and turned on his back to stretch, making those sexy morning noises before getting up.
“Nice tits though,” he said teasingly, then laughed again before walking into the bathroom.
I rolled onto my back and stared at the ceiling. My face was so warm. Wow, that had felt really good. I reached up and touched the boob he’d been playing with and squeezed it. Not the same. Not even close.
Sighing, I climbed out of bed and headed for my room. That might have been the most action I’d get in life. I wished it had lasted a bit longer.
“Morning.” A deep drawl from behind me startled me.
I spun around to see Kye grinning at me.
“Good morning,” I replied.
His gaze slowly took in my entire body before he shook his head and made a strange sound in his throat. “You sleep in that every night?”
I glanced down at my pajamas, then nodded.
Kye licked his bottom lip, and I noticed a flash of metal on his tongue before his teeth closed down on his lip.
“I’ll see you at breakfast,” he said, then winked before walking away.
Opening my door, I went inside and stood there for a moment. Okay, so I was pretty positive Kye had been flirting with me. The way he had looked at me was like he was hungry. If only I could get butterflies and tingly feelings with him. Maybe … I wondered if he’d want to show me some things so I could experience them.
Kye seemed like the kind of guy who wouldn’t mind that. I just wanted to know what it felt like to have an orgasm. To be touched in places. Not necessarily sex, but I wasn’t crossing it off.
Levi was too complicated. He, for one, wasn’t interested in my body. He was interested in taking care of me. Like the way he made sure I had my meds and how he stayed with me when Dr. Andrus came to do his visits. Levi had taken on this role as my protector for whatever reason, and I knew I’d somehow gotten very lucky.
After this morning’s experience, I was finding myself wanting to at least get a chance to know how being with a man sexually felt. I knew men weren’t going to want a relationship with me. I couldn’t give them a family. My life wasn’t promised to be long. Who wanted that kind of girlfriend? No one. But that didn’t mean I shouldn’t know how it felt to be wanted. Even if it was just for my body.
Watching Huck with Trinity and Gage with Shiloh all the time made me yearn to feel that. I was getting desperate, apparently, if I was considering asking Kye to help me out.
Dropping my face into my hands, I groaned. The idea was just embarrassing.
My attempt to masturbate in the shower failed again. I’d tried it many times before, and I was not doing something right. Frustrated with my own stupidity, I got dressed and headed down to breakfast.