Total pages in book: 71
Estimated words: 70097 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 350(@200wpm)___ 280(@250wpm)___ 234(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 70097 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 350(@200wpm)___ 280(@250wpm)___ 234(@300wpm)
“This is Daisy, she’s a mare, and she’s yours.”
He looked at me. “Mine? What do you mean mine? Like the horse you want me to ride next?”
“No, I mean she’s yours. I bought her for you. Whether you choose to stay here or not, she’s your horse.”
“You’d let me take her with me?”
A knot formed in my stomach, but I nodded. “Rhys thought I was bribing you to stay, but that’s not why I bought her for you. I mean, if she helps you decide, then that’s great, but I bought her because you wanted a horse, and I wanted you to have one.”
I held out a carrot to Jacob, and he looked up at me with tears running down his cheeks. “No one has done anything this nice for me since my grandparents let me come to their farm.”
“If you choose to stay, I’ll do everything I can to make you feel loved every day.”
“I won’t leave unless you force me to.”
“I would never do that.”
Jacob held the carrot out to Daisy, and she took it from him gently.
He rubbed her nose as she chewed. “You’re so beautiful. I’m going to take such good care of you.” He looked over his shoulder at me. “And of you too.”
“I don’t—”
His glare shut me right up. I did need someone to care for me, to love me, and I needed it to be Jacob.
“We can take her out on the lead rope, but Rhys or I should ride her before you do.”
“I want to get to know her, and I’m anxious to ride her too, but do you know what I want more right now?”
“What?”
“You.”
I sucked in my breath when I saw the heat in his eyes. “You can have me anytime you want.”
He turned back to the horse. “Daisy, you’re going to love it here, but right now, we have something to attend to. We’ll come back to see you soon.”
Jacob took my hand and tugged me toward the door.
“In a hurry?”
“Fuck yes.”
He stopped walking when I turned toward the house. “Do we have to go back to your room?”
“As fun as it would be to fuck you in the barn, I want us both naked, and I want to take my time with you.”
“I don’t want to be in the barn. I want to be somewhere private where your brothers won’t interrupt us, and you can fully let go. Is there anywhere truly private?”
Could I fully let go with him? Did I trust myself?
“Yes. Come on.” There was a cabin on the southern perimeter of the property. I’d had a few of the hands fix it up in the hopes that Blade would agree to move in. It would give him privacy, but I’d know he was safe.
We took one of the ATVs. Having Jacob’s arms wrapped around me had me driving at maximum speed. I needed to show him I loved him and make him believe I would never send him away.
When we reached the cabin, I unlocked the door and made Jacob stay behind me while I did a quick sweep of the place. After the week we’d had, I wasn’t taking any chances.
When I’d verified that the single open room, the loft, and the tiny bathroom were empty, I pulled Jacob inside, slammed the door, and pushed him up against it. He wrapped his legs around me and tried to pull me even closer.
I slipped my hands under his shirt and slid them over his chest. When he whimpered into my mouth, I flicked my thumbs over his nipples.
“Off,” I demanded, pulling his shirt up.
He pushed me away. “Wait.”
I froze. He hadn’t changed his mind, had he? I would let him go if he asked me to, but I wasn’t sure I would ever be okay.
“I love when you take charge.”
That didn’t sound like he was backing out. “I know you do.”
“But I want this to be about me taking care of you.”
“Jacob, I told you—”
“You need comfort as much as I do.
“You had to watch a man die, and I’m asking you to stay where you will likely see that again.”
“I knew what I was getting into. You take on too much. You won’t ask for help. You try to take care of everyone, and if you keep doing that, you’re going to crash.”
“I can handle it.”
“Even if you could—and no one can forever—you don’t have to. Rhys and Rogue are here to help you, and so am I, though I’ll help you in very different ways.”
I couldn’t help but smile back at him. “I don’t think I can do submission.”
“You don’t have to. All you have to do is exactly what you want. This is about you taking what you need. It’s not about me. It’s not about you staying aware enough to make sure we’re safe. It’s not about you making sure it’s the best sex I’ve ever had. It’s about you losing yourself in pleasure.”