Total pages in book: 124
Estimated words: 117415 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 587(@200wpm)___ 470(@250wpm)___ 391(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 117415 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 587(@200wpm)___ 470(@250wpm)___ 391(@300wpm)
So instead I just say, “The poor fountain has no coins sitting at the bottom. Why should I expect to have any wishes come true if I don’t toss a single coin in?”
He shrugs. “Not all wishes cost money.”
I eye him with a smirk. “So we’re supposed to just … expect happiness for free?”
He looks at me sincerely. “All happiness is free.”
My smirk drops away.
I think Austin is making me see my own life for the first time.
The privilege. And the emptiness. And the joys right in front of my face that have nothing to do with my parents’ wealth or my own confined placement in the world. Things I could simply reach out and just … have. If I let myself.
I’d kiss him right here and now if I wasn’t certain my mother was lurking at one of the twenty windows facing this fountain and wondering about us.
Austin nods at the water. “So, uh … any chance those adorable little ducks from town ever flock all the way out here?”
I squint at him. “Don’t you dare go naming the rest of them.”
He laughs.
The pavilion is still set up with rows of white chairs cut down the middle by an aisle. Since it’s covered, we take a break from the sun and sit in the front row, staring up at the big empty stage. It’s there that we lose ourselves in conversation—as well as any sense of time. It isn’t long before our feet are kicked up on neighboring chairs—and at times, each other—while he shares funny stories about some of the craziest shit that’s happened to him during his shows. I hear about the bras that have landed on his head or his guitar. Women who have climbed up onto the stage. This one time when someone threw a shoe at them and it landed so perfectly on top of their keyboardist’s synthesizer that they just left it there for the rest of the show. Austin still can’t say if it was a heckler or a fan wanting to get their Reeboks autographed.
During a lull in conversation, we both notice the sun’s shifted. I can’t believe the whole day passed like nothing. Is this what time is always like with Austin? Cherishing every minute so much, they just pass right by like a breeze?
“How many shows you got left in Texas?” I ask. We’re nearly sitting in the same chair. I dared to rest my head on his shoulder since the house is far away and no one’s nearby.
“Two more. Tomorrow n’ the day after that.”
“Then you’re out to Louisiana next?”
“Wow,” he says teasingly. “Memorized our tour schedule?”
“No. Yes. I’m just good at memorization. Numbers. Dates.”
“You should meet Raj. Oh, wait, you already know him.”
“Too well, in fact,” I agree, reminded of the Hulk dildo.
He turns his head slightly, cheek pressed to my hair. “I guess we’ll be on the phone a lot over the next couple of weeks.”
I try not to sound sad. “Of course we will.”
“I’ll call you every night after the show. And before, too. How else am I gonna be at my best if I don’t hear the sound of your voice before I go on?”
I give it a thought. “Y’know …”
“Hmm?”
“I’m just, uh … thinking …” I bite my lip.
“Uh-oh. Sounds like you’ve got a wicked idea.”
My eyes are on the stage, imagining him on the road. I smirk. “Maybe, like … I could … y’know …”
“Uh, can you give me an actual sentence so I can follow you?”
I sit up and turn to him. “I can afford to fly out to you.”
He stares at me. “Wait. Are you tellin’ me …?”
“Louisiana. Mississippi. Tennessee. I can be a groupie. Get my own room at your hotels. Be there. I mean, not all the time. You need your space to do your Chase stuff. And I know I should keep my distance, since no one can truly know about us. Except Raj.”
“Except Raj,” he echoes, eyes drifting as he thinks this over. “I can’t believe I’m actually considering this.” He drops his arm from the back of the chair, his hands going to his lap. He sits forward, looking pensive suddenly. “But … TJ …”
“What? It’s a great idea. The best idea I’ve ever had.”
“It sounds … fun. Lots of fun. I can’t deny how amazing it’d be to have you there with me …” He sighs. “But I can’t ask you to do that. What about your parents? I can’t let my life uproot yours.”
“They’ll be fine. I wasn’t even supposed to be home ‘til July.”
“They don’t even know about your road trip thing. I only just met your mom. She basically adopted me today. And if I go and become the reason her only son’s runnin’ off to—”
I cut him off with a kiss, hands gripping him by the shoulders.