Total pages in book: 203
Estimated words: 199654 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 998(@200wpm)___ 799(@250wpm)___ 666(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 199654 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 998(@200wpm)___ 799(@250wpm)___ 666(@300wpm)
Thanks everyone. I know this request is less than articulate, but I’m in shock, I’m devastated, jetlagged and I’ve had some traumatic experiences the last few days, so I’m not sure when I’ll feel like discussing this but I would really, really appreciate your support ASAP as I need to make things happen fast. Hugs.
I glimpsed at the signatures I’ve gotten through the online petition and all but a handful come from my own pack, from those who know both Jase and me personally. After checking that, I looked on our group chat server and found a flood of comments as well as some private messages that have me spiraling, questioning everything.
Instead of support for my petition and my request of testimonials from other females who were mated to an alpha against their will, I’ve found myself red-faced reading the back-and-forth discussion that’s not on my side.
A few of the early replies accused me of making a joke. I’ve read a few comments indicating resistant females always come around. In fact, there’s not one case detailed with another outcome, nothing about a female suffering abuse or who’s mated but wished she could’ve had a choice.
Testimonials would help me illustrate how the ability to hit a pause button on a pending mating to an alpha would’ve saved lives or did good things for the female in question, but nope, none of that. And I’m discouraged and feeling emotional because I’ve gotten outraged comments and direct messages that range from people asking if I’m overreacting to telling me I should take a minute and think about the can of worms I’m opening.
More than one comment said I should at least give Jason a chance to redeem himself. Another comment gently accused me of forgetting why I fell in love with him and being clouded by my anger, encouraging me to forgive.
I got a message from an old summer camp friend accusing me of being ungrateful that I’m getting everything I ever wanted when most females could only dream of landing an alpha, let alone the exact super alpha I’ve been pining for. Though she wrote it in a joking tone, the obvious snarkiness between the lines left me reeling.
I got one comment that said,
“Are you joking? Please say you are. Jase identified you as his and you’re not drowning in super alpha cum by choice? WTF? Who is this and what have you done with our friend Bailey?”
There were several emoji reactions on her comment including laughing, 100% symbols, question marks, and hearts.
Am I being ridiculous? And not one testimonial of a female who wishes she could’ve stopped herself from being claimed by an alpha? Are there really that few females mated to alphas out there that are miserable? Is Sherry Creed’s tale truly rare?
Do I just need more time to get those testimonials? It’s only been a day since I asked.
The group chat isn’t huge, just twenty-six of us, with about sixteen who are super-active. Some are other pack librarians and several are summer camp friends who joined what started as a book club and morphed into a group chat of friends who support one another.
I only have one more day.
I fully expected to open a flood of support and help. I thought my pals would rally behind me and take up my cause with me, but I’m left with what mostly feels like jealousy, bitterness, or downright skepticism because I’m getting something they’ll never have.
“Oh poor you. That gorgeous Adonis we all know you’ve wanted your whole life suddenly wants you and just you? Poor Bailey. Getting everything she ever wanted including love and protection. Just kidding girl. But seriously though… you can’t at least give him a chance? Lick all those tattoos like you’ve been dreaming of for years and then see if you’re still mad at him.”
“What happened to forgiveness, Bailey? This is the guy we’ve heard about for years. Is it possible he deserves some forgiveness? After all… things have been hectic around your pack lately. Is he just being an a-hole because you’ve had a spell put on him?”
“Make him work for it, girl, but don’t wait too long or it might be too late because maybe he’ll request the severance because he thinks this is so hurtful of you.”
“I support you and I support the rights of all females. But don’t you think fate knows what it’s doing? You being mated to a council alpha could be so good for females. Think of the good you can do from that position. I can’t sign that petition in good faith because girl, I am so so happy 4 u and think you’ll realize this is the best news once you’ve had a chance to process everything.”
Someone piggybacked off that last response to say,
“And you get the alpha knot and purr for your efforts. Use this to your advantage. I’ll bet a hundred bucks once you mate with him you’ll forgive him.”